Trials will Make us Stronger
I wouldn't say I am a runner; rather I would say that I enjoy staying active. Not being able to run these last 7 months has made me appreciate the moments when I did run. Yesterday, I ran for the first time after having surgery last March. I was super excited. I felt like I was just making it over a huge mountain I have been climbing for a long time.
It's funny how life can throw you some curve balls just when you think you're to the end of the trial you now reside. Today I went to get a second opinion on my the progress of my knee. I have been unable to get full extension for the last 7 months, I have had pain in my lower knee, and to be honest--I didn't think it was part of the "normal" healing process.
Despite being concerned about my healing, I don't think I thought that I would be going back into surgery. Just when I had finally been given the "OK" to run, I was going to be starting back at ground zero.
I can't describe the bag of mixed emotions in my heart. I am sad. I am glad. I am frustrated. I am relieved. I am sad for obvious reasons. I am glad that my problems haven't been "just in my head", but that there is really something that can be done. I am frustrated that I still need to learn patience.... And, I am relieved that I have some answers.
This definitely isn't an easy trial for me, but I know that it will bless me as I continue to persevere. And someday...someday...someday...I will run for reals.
